I Love My Island…But I Love Him More!

Yes, I know you know, but I must reiterate!  I LOVE this island of mine!  I adore it in fact!  I can think of no other place in the world that I would rather live.  This is why I talk of it so often.  I love it THAT much!
And with that said, I wouldn’t leave this island for anything in the world.  Or would I?
My life has been in turmoil for the past month or so!  I’ve shared some of that with you in previous posts.  I’ve shared tales of messes, and disrespect, and utter chaos.  But these things are all temporary (or so I would hope.  For the record, they are still going on and it’s about to make me blow).
But I haven’t shared the “big” picture with you yet.  Not the big events that have been unfolding that might just change my life forever (or at least the next few years).  I haven’t been sharing the things that really matter the most.  There are things I have been harboring, that I’ve been keeping to myself, that I have been crying over on a nightly basis!  These hidden things will probably make me leave MY island!

These things I am referring to are affecting my family!  You see, when B took this job in Houston, we knew it was contract work and that it would not be forever.  His “job” would last, but the actual location would not.  One job finished up, and he moved to the next…over and over again.  All of them remained close enough to my island that he could commute.  It was not a short commute, but HE was willing to make it for US so we could stay HERE!

Then it happened.  A couple of weeks ago (it seems like an eternity), the “big” job opened up.  They wanted him on this “big” job.  This “big” job will last from 3 to 7 years.  This “big” job is 2 1/2 hours away from my island.  What to do?  What to do?  He drove it for 2 days but that wasn’t cost or time-effective since he also goes to school 2 nights a week.  

So this week, we made the decision (while I cried and he was on the verge) that he would start staying at an extended stay motel with a buddy during the week and only come home on the weekends (provided he gets to come home on the weekends since 7-day shifts are in the near future).  So the babies and I will live alone on this island (well not really since “the other” is still here, but that’s a story for another day) while he works on the other side of Houston and stays far, far away from us for far, far too many hours, days, weeks, months, years.  
So why am I sharing these woes with you?  What is my point you ask?  We’re miserable apart!  That’s the point!  I love MY island (and so does he) but I love HIM more!  And so do my kids!  What is paradise if there’s a hole in your life and your heart?   It’s NOTHING!
So we’ve started looking for temporary housing on the other side of Houston.  That’s right, FAR away from MY island home!  BUT we will be together there.  We can’t be together here right now.  It’s sad here right now.  It hardly feels like paradise at all right now and more like hell on the beach.  
We will more than likely be moving from my island within the next month or so.  No concrete plans as of yet, but full determination.  He is our world.  My island is just a piece of real estate (a beautiful piece of real estate).  My family, my husband, and my heart are worth way more than a piece of real estate!
So wish me luck!  Send sparkles!  And know that I will be back on MY island some day very soon.  We’ll live THERE until the contract is complete and then we’ll move back HERE where our hearts belong!  
But for now, this is the right thing to do.  Because I love HIM way more than I love this island!  And that’s a whole lot of love! 
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Christy Gossett, managing editor of SoFabFood and creator of the healthy living blog, Insanity Is Not An Option, is a WAHM of 6 kids ranging in age from 27 to 8. She enjoys sharing her heart-healthy, low sodium recipes to help others with dietary restrictions enjoy a flavorful life while maintaining a healthy diet.

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  1. Jules Cohn says:

    Christy-

    I know how much you love your island, so I know this is so hard for you. I also know how much you love B, so 3-5 years will not be that long, it will go quick, especially if you are all together! Hang in there and know that I love you!

  2. Lisa Harris says:

    Christy,
    My heart feels for you. I know how much you love that island. I’ve been there so I understand completely where you’re coming from. I also knows how it feels to leave some place you love for your hubby. You can always go back to the island when he’s done his ‘big’ job….the island’s not going anywhere. True love like you have is what’s important in your life. It’s a big adventure for all of you but you will make wherever you go sparkly and a wonderful place to be.

  3. Beth Sanborn says:

    Christy, I know how you feel. When we first moved to GA, my husband went there first for two weeks. Then when we moved to SC, he went there for an entire month before we joined him. Both times my heart felt like it was ripped out. We had never been apart before then…when you run your own business together, you stay together all day and every day. We work so much better together! After going through it twice, I will never do it again. If you’re like me (which sounds like it!) you will do everything you can to stay together, including living in an extended stay for as long as it takes (did that too!). Hugs to you! All will be well!

  4. oh chica! I know how this is! You know we’re a military family and constantly moving! And then on top of that he still gets taken away for 7 months almost every year. I know how hard it is to have your hubby away from you and the kids but I think you’re making the right decision. I know you love the island but you can still visit! and think of it this way. You’re getting to see another part of the state. It’s like an extended field trip…well for a really long time. At least that’s the way I think of it. It’s always an adventure! And just think you’re sharing that adventure with one of the most important people in your life! (or should that say person…I’m not good with verb agreement…LOL)

  5. I got ur BACK,,,mamma….i know the north side of houston like the back of my hand!!!!

  6. Aww…this makes me all sad face. (I’m going to keep saying that to try and make you smile until you tell me, “Amy, it was funny once, not the threezillionth time.”)
    Just remember, the island isn’t going anywhere…you can visit. Having your whole family together is going to more than make up for the drive. 🙂

  7. clgossett says:

    That won’t get old for some odd reason! Smile face, sad face. It cracks me up for the stupidest reasons. No need for the little simple 🙁 or 🙂 when you can just spell it out! I’m such a nerd but I laugh at this every time and it will never get old!

  8. MSRheinlander says:

    Sending lots of sparkles your way!! I know everything will work out for you!!