When was the last time you spent a quiet moment just doing nothing – just sitting and looking at the sea, or watching the wind blowing the tree limbs, or waves rippling on a pond, a flickering candle or children playing in the park? ~Ralph Marston
For me, it’s been a long time. Way too long. I don’t take much “me” time. I’m always stressing. I mean, seriously, I have a family to take care of. I have content to approve, I have posts to write, I have posts to review, and heaven forbid I abandon my social presence. Taking time for me? Sacrilege!
But this afternoon, Bubby was tired. The girls were at school and it was quiet. I had accomplished some of my tasks (not nearly enough, but some). I decided we should leave early to get Bug. Bubby would get a nap in the car, he always sleeps in the car, and I could just take a break. Yes, let’s ride. And so we did. He fell asleep in less than 5 minutes and I was left with a half an hour. Computer free, people free, care free actually. I pulled over. The ocean was calling. The waves were angry and I love angry waves.
I did the unthinkable actually. I tuned out. My baby was sleeping and I decided to take some time to just enjoy a moment to myself. I could see him, asleep like an angel, and I grabbed my camera of course and stepped to a peaceful place. The shore. The waves were crashing in to the rocks just like the waves of emotion that have been crashing in to my heart as of late.
Today, as I watched the angry waves crashing on to the rocks, I realized that I still have a lot of healing to do. I put on my happy face every day, and for the most part, I really love my life, but my heart, and my soul, remain broken to an extent. They’ll heal…they always do. But today, I needed to just sit and watch the waves crash. The violence and the beauty was powerful, and healing, all at the same time.
When I left the rocks, I came across a flock of seagulls. I watched them frolic then soar. Island living is liberating, and healing for me. It’s going to be OK. It’s all going to be OK.
Christy Gossett, managing editor of SoFabFood and creator of the healthy living blog, Insanity Is Not An Option, is a WAHM of 6 kids ranging in age from 26 to 7. She enjoys sharing her heart-healthy, low sodium recipes to help others with dietary restrictions enjoy a flavorful life while maintaining a healthy diet.
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