He Loves Me…He Loves Me Not

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B buys me flowers on a regular basis. That’s cool and I always appreciate them. I especially like the white roses and the pink. They’re my favorites. He buys them because he loves me, and because he thinks about me often. I suppose I believe this to be true. I honestly do know that he loves me. 

But I constantly find his wedding ring on the counter. The true symbol of marriage, as I see it anyway. So what do those flowers mean if he doesn’t wear the ring of eternity on his hand?

To me? Not as much as they would if he did. 

It is what it is and he and I differ on this opinion. He doesn’t think it means much and it’s just a “symbol”. He’s right on that count. It’s a symbol of committed love that he doesn’t feel he needs to share with the world. I guess I “get” it. But really, I don’t. It means a lot to me. It should mean a lot to him. 
Truth be told, I don’t wear my wedding ring a lot of the time anymore. I’ve kind of given up on it. I’m tired of displaying this badge of honor that he doesn’t care about. I’m tired of being the only one that wants to display my undying love. And this makes me sad and disappointed in myself all at the same time.

I love the flowers. I really do. But I’d love the eternal band that never left his finger so very much more. It might only be a symbol to him, but it’s a symbol that means a lot to me. One day, he’ll get it. One day, he won’t care that the ring is uncomfortable to him. One day, he’ll wear it all day, every day. That would make me very happy. I love so very much about my husband. I think y’all know that by now. But I don’t love this. I should be content that I have a husband that thinks about me enough that he still buys me flowers on a regular basis after all of these years. 

I know this seems trite to some but we all have things that we hold fast to whether everyone else gets them or not. This just so happens to be my thing. I’ll stop whining now and just go and enjoy my roses. 
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About Christy

Christy Gossett, managing editor of SoFabFood and creator of the healthy living blog, Insanity Is Not An Option, is a WAHM of 6 kids ranging in age from 27 to 8. She enjoys sharing her heart-healthy, low sodium recipes to help others with dietary restrictions enjoy a flavorful life while maintaining a healthy diet.

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