He’s My Baby…He’s My Bubby…And I Worry!

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It was my choice to have babies early in life (sort of) and later in life (most definitely). But as I watch my baby, the last of the lineage, sleep, I worry. A lot of us joke about my age and I’m cool with that. I’m crawling on up there. I get it. But this baby is 4. He means the world to me, and I am his world (other than cartoons of course).

But as I watch this little man sleep, I worry. Will I be here to watch him graduate from high school (holy heck I’ll be 59 by then)? Will I be here to watch him graduate college? Will I be at his wedding? Will I be around to watch the birth of his first child?
I don’t have an answer to these questions. I wish I did. I love this little guy to pieces. Y’all know that. My only son. He holds my heart. I should be here as he meets the milestones in his life. I might not be. It is what it is. I can’t tell him that.

He thinks his mommy hung the moon and the stars. Let him think it. He’ll know as he grows up that mommy won’t be here forever. I wish I could be, if nothing else but for him.

Sometimes I wish he showed up when I was 21. But then again, life isn’t promised to any of us for any given amount of years. Maybe he was “given” to me to keep me around a little longer. I love this little guy with every fiber of my being.
I hope I’m around for his graduations, his marriage, and the birth of his children. I need that, and so does he.
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Christy Gossett, managing editor of SoFabFood and creator of the healthy living blog, Insanity Is Not An Option, is a WAHM of 6 kids ranging in age from 27 to 8. She enjoys sharing her heart-healthy, low sodium recipes to help others with dietary restrictions enjoy a flavorful life while maintaining a healthy diet.

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  1. mcgraw14me says:

    Awww, great post!! I feel the same about my 5 year old daughter. I have her and 3 sons(1 adopted) who are older, 19, 20 and 21. I will be 54 when my Katie-bug graduates and I pray I am here when she does that and everything else too!! I’m sure we will both be there for our babies graduations, marriage and their babies!! 🙂

  2. Renae of Simple Sequins says:

    Why are kids so cute when they are sleeping? Thanks for linking with WW today. Newest follower here.

  3. Cascia Talbert says:

    What a touching post! I ask myself the same questions about my baby, number 5 for me.

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