I was gonna be an actress, I was gonna be a star, I was gonna shake my ass, on the hood of White Snakes’ car. Seriously, y’all, I was gonna be BIG. I was young, beautiful, and ready for the world. Then…I got knocked up. My life changed. I was a mom. No more dreams of UCLA, no more dreams of Hollywood. A mom?
Knocked up at 21. That was not my plan. I was going places. I had a plan. I was the next Audrey Hepburn. Seriously, that would have been me, if not for…knocked up. But it happened and that’s where my life began.
Bryana…my first. My love. My heart was full and my dreams of grandeur went out in smoke. But I was cool with that the minute I saw her beautiful, fat, 9 pound, 4 ounce chubby face. I was hooked. And then I was a mom. My new dream.
This baby, this now 25 year old baby, completed my world. THIS was who I was meant to be. Bump fame…motherhood was where it was at! It’s challenging. Everything worthwhile is challenging. But this baby helped me, accidentally, find my true calling in life. Fame was never meant to find me. Motherhood was.
After all of these years, 4 kids later, I realize that I was intended to be a mom. My babies are my life. I couldn’t exist without them so I’m so glad a higher force had a greater plan for me. Am I the perfect mom? HECK NO! But I love my babies, and they love me. It doesn’t get much better than that. I’m where I’m at for a reason. I belong here. And I’m glad I had an awesome surprise 25 years ago. I was meant to be a mom.
Whether I knew it or not, this was my destiny. Thanks for coming into my life and happy birthday. You changed my life, for the better, and I’ll forever be grateful to you. I thought I was destined for greatness, but I never knew the greatness I could achieve by bringing so much beauty into the world. I love you more than the world is big, more than the sky is blue, more than the ocean’s deep. That’s how much I love you. And that’s how thankful I am that you changed my life’s plan. I wouldn’t have it any other way. YOU, and your siblings, were my destiny.
Thank you for completing me!