My sparkles come in all shapes and sizes. But this week has been incredible! And this week, my sparkles revolved around "him". You see, over the past 10 years, B and I have had a lot of ups and down. The ups have been amazing and the downs have been heart breaking (and I mean really, really bad for me). But mostly, it's been in between time. We love each other, dare I say we are always "in love" with each other, but it tends to be a silent love. He does his thing and I do mine. We co-habitate. He's busy with work and school, and I'm busy with work and the kids. There's always a mutual respect but the love doesn't shine or fade, and so we move on with our mundane lives and for the most part, we are happy.
But sometimes things wake us up, one or the other of us has an epiphany and the love shines through. I don't know if it was my trip to Dallas that did it this time, if he missed me that much, or if we were just scheduled for more up time. But whatever the case may be, we're sparkling again...together...as a couple...and it's a beautiful thing.
He's not a communicator, and as you might well imagine, I am. This causes problems for us. I want to hear about his day, but I want for him to listen about mine. I want to hear how he feels about the dealings of his day, but I want to hear about how he feels in his heart. He hides his heart too often. I get discouraged and I hide in my emotional cocoon. It is what it is and I love him despite of his hidden self and emotions.
But this week, he talked! He didn't just gripe about work. He didn't just share the things that made him angry. He shared his undying love for me. I might embarrass him here, but I don't care. I'm elated. Sometime in the middle of the week, I went in to the kitchen after I had sent him to the store for some groceries because I was just.too.busy to go. I found an envelope peeking out of my purse. In it was the most brilliant of all surprises. There weren't flowers (those come often), there wasn't a present, there was a card! I made sure I was alone as I opened it (we all know I'm an emotional basket case).
He finally acknowledged that we're soul mates. We are for the record!
An amazing gift of happiness for all of our lives? Finally! He gets it!
We're on the same page. I started to cry. But this is just a card. Anyone can pick out a card right? He didn't write this. He just knew what I wanted to hear so he picked this card. Of course he did! Brilliant on his part as I stood in my kitchen and cried. But then I turned the last fold. My husband of 10 years and little words of emotion surprised even the woman that loves him more than life.
These were his words. It wasn't a sentence or two. These weren't hollow, unthought out words. This was a long, meaningful paragraph. From him...to me. It was beautiful! These were the words of a man "in love" and that man loved me. So I'll take the ups with the downs, and everything in between, because this love is worth it. He is worth it. Life is a circular journey and I'd rather be caught in this circle of the unknown than to miss out on the beauty. These moments are what sparkles are all about!
Have a great week and remember to tell those you love just how much you love them! You never know how much you can affect their day, their week, their life! This card did so much for me, and this gesture will take us through the next hard time because it will come, and this time, I am well armed with sparkles.
Awe!! So sweet!! Perfection has it's flaws... that is what I say about my marriage ;)ReplyDelete
Well said my friend! :)ReplyDelete
This could be a post about my life anymore. We try to do a movie date night on the weekend because we don't see each other during the week.ReplyDelete
PS: You are experimenting with camera angles! <3
Don't ever think I'm not listening and taking notes or saving emails. I just don't always have time to act on things right then. I love that last photo and you are it's Sensei! I totally used your trick there. See you don't waste your time on me. :)ReplyDelete
That's so awesome! That card is beautiful. I hope this is the beginning of continued better communicatin for the two of it.ReplyDelete