I’m a giver. That’s what I do. I’m pretty good at it actually! But when do you say “enough is enough”?
I was a cheerleader in high school (giving support), I am a loyal friend (giving support), I am a dedicated wife (giving support), I am the mother of 6 (giving support), I am a blogger (giving support), I am a community member (giving support).
But do I give way too much? I tend to think that I do NOT! You can NEVER give too much, right?
I’m beginning to think that I’m WRONG on this one!
Seriously, how much can one person give without return? Selfish thinking I know and not my type of thinking at all, but I’m backtracking and thinking (oh my stars, she’s thinking again) that maybe I give WAY too much.
You see, over the past couple of years, I have felt violated in my giving way more than I care to mention. At this very moment, I am being violated.
I have given to children that don’t appreciate (parenting I know, I get this). But I have given to children that were given up by their own mother, and still THEY don’t appreciate or respect me. The children I gave birth to…well, they actually kind of DO get me, and in their own way, show me appreciation (I’ll take it)!
I have been disrespected by ex husbands (which is why the have the title of EX) and even the current husband (by his own admission) but I remain nice! I am loyal to a fault!
I have had “friends” betray me, but I’ve been nice! Co-workers betray me, I’ve been nice. Why am I so stinking nice to all of these people?
So I want to know…when is it time to say “WHEN”? Seriously? I’m in a situation right now with a family member, and I have bent over backwards, forwards, back bends and all! You can’t even imagine the level of “niceness” I’ve shown! And I am being pummeled! I’ve kept my mouth shut. I have fought with my husband. I have been impatient (and possibly unkind) to my own children in an effort to be “nice” to this outsider.
When do you say “when”? How do you say “when”? That is the question! Oh the struggling with this niceness!
One of these days I’ll put on my big girl panties and figure it all out, but for now? I’ve just resigned to the fact that I’m too freakin nice for this world!
I hope y’all have a NICE night!