From The Island to The Woodlands Archives - Insanity Is Not An Option

We’re Going Home!

I’m so excited! We’re going home, back to the island that I love, the place of shiny happy people. And this is the exact place where my family belongs, where I belong.

Is this the best photo you’ll ever see if you visit me regularly? It absolutely is NOT! But B took this with his phone while the babies and I played in our new living room, in our fabulous new pad, on our beloved island, with the biggest smiles we’ve had on our faces in a year. So in my head, this photo is awesome (even though I really look fat in this picture...I hate fat days…don’t we all?).

Our new place is awesome. We have rooms with ocean views, there is a full playground (yes this is important), the pool has waterfalls and a covered cabana, there’s a full gym, and a golf course thingy if you’re in to that kind of thing. You can get a massage on site in their spa, and then walk to the beach in less than 5 minutes even with 2 babies in tow. At this point, I can’t complain and the stars are aligning.

I’ve been incredibly unhappy for the past year. I might have to even admit that I have been horribly depressed at times. I’ve already admitted that my family has been falling apart. We’ve hated the woods and we’ve become the kind of people that I honestly just do not like. We let this place change us and our relationships with each other. That’s our fault really. You can’t blame pine trees, fake people, and allergies for that. We lost who and what we are in these woods.

Last weekend, I made a decision to reclaim my life, and my family. Putting my size 5 foot down was the best thing I’ve done in a long time. And today…I’m smiling and hopeful that the coming year will be our best year ever!

We’re on the right track. We’ll be in paradise (my paradise anyway) with all of our “stuff” on Monday. B works tomorrow, we move Sunday and again on Monday, and then we are so there dudes.

Bring on the sparkles. Y’all will be sick of my sunshine pumping and glitter blowing within about a month. I’m just excited to be home again!

Life Isn’t Always Sunshine and Sparkles

By Christy 11 Comments

Life isn’t always sunshine and sparkles. We all know this but we plug along and we hope for the best. For the most part, my life is pretty sparkly and sunshine abounds. But lately, for the past month or so primarily, it’s been pretty craptastic and I’ve been trying to hide that from you. I’d rather share my sparkles than to dull the sparkles of others with my tales of woe.

I’ve stayed relatively quiet on social so as not to be negative and I’ve buried myself in my work because that’s where I shine. I have this ~~obsession~~ strong desire to be perfect and I tend to gravitate towards those that appreciate my perceived perfection. That’s how I reward myself and how I feed my perfectionist tendencies. But I tend to neglect those that see my flaws. I hide from them. I hide my feelings of rejection and hurt and I ignore their wants and needs because they just don’t see how great I am, every single moment of every single day.

But this month, the bottom fell out. There was real trouble within my own home and I ignored it because I don’t like ugly. I had buried myself so deeply in the sparkly things, that I’d neglected to see and correct the ugly. My family was falling apart, and I ignored it. It would go away. Or would it? No, it would rear its ugly head and culminate in a family-breaking event. I had to face it but I didn’t know how. The damage was done.

I won’t go in to detail because even someone that lives such a public life realizes that some things should remain behind closed doors. I know you can respect that. I will say that I woke up this morning and realized that I needed to make a change.

Today, the babies and I headed to the island to cleanse. That is our home and we needed to see true beauty. We quite honestly packed the car down with everything that would fit and had planned on staying. Instead, we laughed, we spent time together, we had lots of “huggie time”, but in the end, we decided to come back to this dreaded place to put our family back in order. Our family belongs together. And our family, as a whole, has decided that we need to get our acts together and back to our roots. There will be counseling, I’m sure. There will be more tears, I’m sure. There will be a lot of soul searching. But we will remain a family, on that we all agree.

On a positive note, we’ve decided to move back to the island before we had planned. That is where we belong and I plan on looking in to that first thing in the morning. We need to get out of here! And I have a crazy exciting new job that kicks off tomorrow that will offer more stability and a more structured schedule that will allow more time for my family. The cleansing today has really given me a new lease on life. I’d gotten in to a rut and I helped to facilitate the down slide of my family. I’m ready for my new adventure and my happy, healthy family again.

Life should be primarily sunshine and sparkles and I say bring it! I’m ready to feel whole again.

My Wishes for a Happy 2013

By Christy 11 Comments

With every new year that approaches, we all hear people making resolutions and promising to follow through on each and every one of them. Rarely does anyone accomplish such a task, even with the best of intentions. We all set lofty goals for ourselves that would take a total life revamp to accomplish. That’s a tall order. I’m not big in to the whole “resolution” thing. That’s way too concrete for me. Instead, I make mental notes to try to fix things from the past year, to better myself for the coming year, and to complete things I should have done from all of the past years of my life. I like to call them “wishes” because I truly wish that I will follow through this year, at least at some level. And I usually do, at least at some level.

So without further ado, my 10 wishes for myself for the coming year (in no particular order of importance):

Work smarter, not harder.
Spend more time with my family away from this little black box.
Every time Bubby yells “huggy time”, stop what I’m doing and participate.
Tell B more often how much I love and appreciate him (even if he’s ranting about a bad day at work).
Get back to the Island, and stay there.
Be a better friend.
Sparkle more and never let anyone or anything dull my sparkles.
Enjoy my new job (more on that later).
Learn how to properly use my new ~~bad ass~~ awesome camera.
Enjoy life and my children more no matter what drama gets tossed my way.

So there you have it. I’m sure I won’t stick completely to this list, but I assure you I will work toward making myself a better person while trying to achieve all of my wishes for the new year. That’s the best any of us can do.

Happy New Year! I hope all of you have a beautiful and sparkling 2013 and I hope all of your wishes, for yourself and for others, come true!