The past few months have been rough. I see that above message pinned to me on a weekly basis, shared on my timeline on FB even more than that. Yet, I’ve ignored this important message.
January 7th started a litany of “bad stuff” and I usually don’t let the bad stuff get me down. This time, however, was an exception. A series of bad events took over my life and dulled my sparkles. One by one, they hit, and they were legitimate problems. One by one, I let THEM control ME. From horrible house guest, to financial woes due to a move, to a “home” that just isn’t. I let circumstances turn me into one of those people who I don’t like at all.
I became a whiner. I became a complainer. Dare I say it? Yes, I do! I’d become a bitch! All of the characteristics I hate, I’d become! Each event had a horrible impact on me, and I indeed was becoming someone who I was not, someone who if I was not me, I would despise. Who am I kidding? I had started to despise myself!
But more importantly than that, I was not being a good wife, a good mother, nor a good friend. These were the things that I prided myself in and I was failing miserably. I was in my little sad shell, and it’s time to bust out!
I sparkle, therefore I am. Sparkle is not just word, it’s a true state of mind. It’s who I am and I want ME back! No, I will not forgive the bad house “guest” for draining our savings dry and taking advantage of us while we opened our home and he disrupted our peace. No, we will never recover the funds lost in this unexpected move. No, I will never love these Woodlands like I loved my Island. But it’s time to put on my big girl panties and move on!
There have been other events that I have not shared and do not care to share for fear of being the perpetual whiner. But believe me, they have been overwhelming. It’s time to take a new stance though, or actually my old stance. Time to put on my sparkle pants again!
The positives far outweigh the negatives here. I have my health, I have my family, and I’m particularly fond of squirrels. All of these live within my reach (especially the squirrels…man we have a lot of them here). So what if it seems to rain every day? It’s the coming of Spring and all of this rain will surely bring many bright and beautiful flowers just around the corner. We love the flowers!
“Life is good, the grass is green, the good Lord smilin’ on you and me…gonna knock on wood”…yes, Kenny Chesney, you are correct! I will remember this and I will never EVER let anyone or anything dull my sparkles again!
My life is good! Despite the set back, the location, the occasional doubt…it’s still good! I am a wife, a mother, and a friend…first and foremost. And NONE of those people have let me down. I’m through with the negativity. Bring on the sparkles!
That’s right people…I’M BACK! Sparkle on!