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You Can Do It Bubby!

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Bug isn’t always the best big sister in the world to her Bubby.  She loves him, but she is often mean to him.  But sometimes, like yesterday, her love for her little brother shines through and it makes my heart happy!  
I watched them ride their bikes together for about an hour and was so touched that every time he got “stuck”, she would jump off of her bike and run to his rescue saying “You can do it Bubby!”.  His face would beam with pride, happiness, and admiration for his hero each and every time.  It doesn’t get much better than this!

Happy Wednesday!  And as always, enjoy all of the “little” moments in your day because those are the ones that make the best memories and actually matter the most!

It All Ends Today! My Sparkles Are Back!

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The past few months have been rough.  I see that above message pinned to me on a weekly basis, shared on my timeline on FB even more than that.  Yet, I’ve ignored this important message. 
January 7th started a litany of “bad stuff” and I usually don’t let the bad stuff get me down.  This time, however, was an exception.  A series of bad events took over my life and dulled my sparkles.  One by one, they hit, and they were legitimate problems.  One by one, I let THEM control ME.  From horrible house guest, to financial woes due to a move, to a “home” that just isn’t.  I let circumstances turn me into one of those people who I don’t like at all.  
I became a whiner.  I became a complainer.  Dare I say it?  Yes, I do! I’d become a bitch!  All of the characteristics I hate, I’d become!  Each event had a horrible impact on me, and I indeed was becoming someone who I was not, someone who if I was not me, I would despise.  Who am I kidding?  I had started to despise myself!
But more importantly than that, I was not being a good wife, a good mother, nor a good friend.  These were the things that I prided myself in and I was failing miserably.  I was in my little sad shell, and it’s time to bust out!
I sparkle, therefore I am.  Sparkle is not just word, it’s a true state of mind.  It’s who I am and I want ME back!  No, I will not forgive the bad house “guest” for draining our savings dry and taking advantage of us while we opened our home and he disrupted our peace.  No, we will never recover the funds lost in this unexpected move.  No, I will never love these Woodlands like I loved my Island.  But it’s time to put on my big girl panties and move on!  
There have been other events that I have not shared and do not care to share for fear of being the perpetual whiner.  But believe me, they have been overwhelming.  It’s time to take a new stance though, or actually my old stance.  Time to put on my sparkle pants again!
The positives far outweigh the negatives here.  I have my health, I have my family, and I’m particularly fond of squirrels.  All of these live within my reach (especially the squirrels…man we have a lot of them here).  So what if it seems to rain every day?  It’s the coming of Spring and all of this rain will surely bring many bright and beautiful flowers just around the corner.  We love the flowers!
“Life is good, the grass is green, the good Lord smilin’ on you and me…gonna knock on wood”…yes, Kenny Chesney, you are correct!  I will remember this and I will never EVER let anyone or anything dull my sparkles again!  
My life is good!  Despite the set back, the location, the occasional doubt…it’s still good!  I am a wife, a mother, and a friend…first and foremost.  And NONE of those people have let me down.  I’m through with the negativity.  Bring on the sparkles!
That’s right people…I’M BACK!  Sparkle on! 

My Life’s A Hot Sparkly Mess!

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Seriously!  Bubby’s face says it all, and the photo explains the rest!  
My life is MORE than a hot sparkly mess right now.  It’s complete and total chaos.  We don’t have “beds”, no TV, hardly any toys at all, only one book (why did we only bring one book?), no furniture, and I have no desk!  This can’t be good!
NAY…this ISN’T good at all!  The kids are crabby, I’m even worse.  We’ve been in these woods for a couple of weeks with none of our “stuff” and we are not acclimating well.  
It’s been raining…A LOT…so we’ve been stuck inside.  Not fun at all.  No sparkles here!   
I’ve been busy working (bumping off of someone’s WiFi I might add…thank you NetGear Guest1) but the kids are bored and who can blame them?  It’s still raining and the pollen is unbearable.  The “woods” are not where we belong. 
And lest we forget that picture shared at the beginning of this post.  I used to have a desk.  I used to be organized.  I used to have my sanity (kind of sort of maybe).  But at least I had a desk.  Now I am working from the floor.  With my laptop on a cooler, knees folded in an uncomfortable position, back propped up on the wall, notebooks and files everywhere.  NO this is NOT ideal!
Hot sparkly mess is an understatement.  I long for normalcy.  I long for MY life to be back again.  I will maintain my work schedule, I will keep attempting to entertain my babies, and we WILL get through this temporary madness.  We WILL have our stuff here soon and we WILL enjoy our years (heaven help us…I hope they are few…you don’t know what has been going on financially and with the utilities and such) here in the woods!
In the meantime, I hope the babies figure out that mommy is just as miserable as they are and that working from a cooler is not my ideal situation while they run around screaming, kicking walls, each other, and throwing crap (seriously, where do they keep finding crap to throw?  There just isn’t that much crap here!).  
I’m ready to get off this ride and back to normalcy as soon as possible.  We’re headed to the island (ahhh paradise…you don’t know how much I’ve missed you) to pack and get some of our “stuff” this weekend.  Top “stuff” on the list includes my desk, more toys, craft items (because it won’t.stop.raining), more books, a TV, and the sanity that I somehow left on the island!
Say a little prayer.  Send some sparkles.  Do whatever it is you believe in, but whatever you do, do it STAT!  We’re not fairing well here in the woods but this is only a temporary set back!  We’ll be sparkling again in no time…I just know we will.  This is only a location and the lack of “stuff” and this weather are putting a damper on our lives right now, but we’ve got this!  We’ve still got each other and that’s what matters the most!

Rock on and don’t let anyone ever dull your sparkles! I will start practicing what I preach again in the morning.  Tonight I whine!