Today was one of those days. I made a mistake. I almost committed social suicide…on accident…in private…in public!
I live my life by integrity. I tell you when things are good…or bad…around my home. I tell you when things are good…or bad…with work. I tell you because if you follow along, you should know.
Do I vent in private to my friends? Of course I do! We all do. But today, I let a script error and my busy schedule make me look like a less than stellar person. Today I failed.
I was talking to a friend. I was frustrated. I wondered if I, if we all, compromised our integrity because we were doing as we were told. I started to vent. In private. And then the SCRIPT hit and shot me into a private but somewhat public forum. And I posted. The comment I made did not sound nice. Taken out of context, it was not nice. It was not me at all.
I even dropped the F bomb.
I do that often just so you know…in private.
It sounded like I was dissing someone that I consider a friend. For the record, I was not. But it is what it is and I can’t lie about it. It looked bad. I looked bad.
I’m not a bad person. What you see is what you get. But I do see things in life, in work, that I don’t agree with, and I talk to friends about those things. But I don’t dis people. It’s not my thing. I wonder if I’m too harsh in my head, so I ask. But today, I asked in public. On accident. The comment was harsh. It included the F bomb. It was one sentence, taken out of context, in a string of sentences.
But I was wrong. I’m sorry.
I’ve made my peace on the back end. The people that know me know that the comment was “off” for me and that there had to be more behind it. The people that wanted to create drama did. I could have lost my job but the people I work for know me and they wanted to listen and understand. For that I am thankful.
I’m most thankful for the understanding and friendship of the one person this could have hurt the most. I explained, then apologized, and she “got” it. Why? Because she knows me. She loves me. And I love her. These are the things that truly matter!
If you got mad at me today, I don’t blame you. If you don’t understand what happened today, or don’t care to understand, maybe you don’t know me at all. My character, and my integrity, are in tact to those that truly love and know me. That’s what matters.
I effed up today. I cried today. I made amends today. We’re all human. Mistakes are inevitable. Look past what you *think* you see and confront the people that make these errors…to their face…before you cause drama. You never know, you could eff up tomorrow.
Embrace your human side and forgive yourself…and others. Don’t judge until you know the “whole” truth! I love my friends and coworkers. Thanks so much for your support and love. You’ll never know how much you mean to me.